Worn out words

Sorry - I'm tired of using this word until the prints faded and the meaning is useless. Everything I do makes me feel regretful and sorry, when it feels like im the only one using this antiquated word. It feels like a dead language, Latin, who says sorry and means it anymore? Do I? 

Feigning interest, saying things that make me feel like a douchebag. Like im talkng myself up, aim to impress, dress my words up to suppress their meaning, holding back my words and biting my tongue, the taste of blood and unused words that speak the truth more than the dribble im blurting.